PAINFUL WRITING

Hi everyone. I know it’s been a while since I’ve put out a real post. I apologize for that. But all that is going to change now that I have gotten some rather grim news. I have two messed up disks in my neck. It is from having degenerative disk disease. There’s no running away from it. It is just something I have to deal with throughout my life. But I have come to realize that the more pain I’m in, the more I write…hence the many blogs I have…LOL.

In finding this news out, the first thing I did was get on my computer and start typing. I am working on another book. I am not sure when that will be out, but it will be a mixture of different types of short stories, all fiction of course. I also thought about writing on the topic of pain. It is hard for me to write about this topic, as I said on my main website, because I feel like I am revealing a part of me that should be kept secret. I don’t know why I feel that way and I am still battling it out. For example, when people call me, I could be in extreme pain. They say, “How are you feeling?” I say, “Oh, I’m fine,” or “I’m hanging in there.” When what I really want to say is, “Help! I’ve fallen and I can’t get up!”

Does writing take my pain away? On the contrary, I am actually in more pain when I write than if I am just sitting on the couch watching television. But the difference is when I write, I am getting thoughts out on paper. There’s something about seeing your thoughts that is comforting. You should try it sometime. Just write how you feel for about thirty seconds. Then read what you wrote and see how that makes you feel. Make sure that you do this when nobody is looking or when no one is around. Otherwise, they’re going to want to see what you wrote. And, just maybe, you may not want to show them. If you do this little exercise and find out that it is therapeutic for you as it is for me, then I would like to recommend a site to you that’s absolutely free. It is called penzu.com. It is a private online journal and it is wonderful! It is so therapeutic because you can change the background and the paper you are using; you can also change the font and the color. But be advised that I have a pro account which is very inexpensive, so you can do a lot more with a pro account than with a free account. Still, the basics pertain to both accounts: Security in knowing that you can type whatever you want and nobody will ever see what you wrote, even when you’re dead. You don’t have to worry about people going through your journals like I do once you’ve moved on. You see, I have about twenty journals filled up. I feel like transferring them all to penzu but now’s not the time. I must write for God until my fingers fall off…or until my disks fall out, whichever comes first.